22 Minutes, 7 Tracks, 1 Truth
In a world full of uncertainty, chaos, and existential threat, you can either be a victim or do the most uncomfortable: to look into the depths of your own soul and change the world from within, by opening your Heart.
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To give the album justice, consider listening start to finish, eyes closed.
To gain context on each track, click on one of the buttons below, although I recommend reading the “Why This Album” section before jumping in.
Why This Album
I’m a stubborn person. I like pointing out mistakes. I love the debate, to destroy someone using Reason, or to summarise someone’s belief system, to indicate how smart I am.
Doing so elevates my sense of worth, as I love to feel valued, to be seen, and to be acknowledged.
For whole my life I thought there was nothing wrong with this approach. Some people are smarter, others are less educated. That’s just how it is. Truth should be the #1 aspiration in people’s lives, right?
There’s one problem with this little passion of mine.
To prove that I’m right, I’m proving someone else wrong.
It’s a transactional game where someone always loses, and that someone better not be me!
When I thus turned 20 in 2012, I started spotting inconsistencies between Science and The Word of God.
As I started researching the topic more, my confidence grew and I held nothing back to prove my Father & Mom wrong.
In doing so, I freed myself from Roman Catholic Dogma, which was in 2015, at the cost of my parent’s favor.
Today in 2020, 5 years later, my Father doesn’t want to see me, nor talk to me, while my mom prays for me daily to not be annihilated by the Pits of Hell.
Something weird was happening between 2015-2020.
I wanted to be happy, but I wasn’t happy.
I wanted to be social and to do cool things, but I kept overthinking.
I wanted to be of service to others, but I felt worthless.
Then I started feeling depressed and my mind couldn’t take a break from thinking.
I thought to myself: there must be something missing in my life!
So I tried to find the answer OUTSIDE of myself:
In books and podcasts about success, in courses about money, business
in self-improvement like in fitness, and relationships.
Although ‘achieving’, I felt emptier by the day, darker by the month, and more ‘broken goods’ than ever.
Something was wrong, at a fundamental level, but I didn’t see it, nor could I name it.
In late 2016 my girlfriend introduced me to this spiritual concept called “Shadow Work” – to willingly face unresolved parts within one’s “Psyche” and integrate them within “You”.
I had a lot of resistance against spiritual concepts, given that I just escaped from a pair of savage claws, and most of it being unscientific according to popular scientists and celebrity skeptics.
But as the months progressed the darkest hour approached closer and closer. I got myself in situations where I found myself in uncontrollable downward spirals, seeing the worst in everything and myself, and I couldn’t blame it this time on anything external.
So I gave in. I agreed to put aside all I knew about Science, Contemporary Psychology, and The Brain… to take a deep look at this “Shadow Work”.
It took only a few sincere minutes of reading in one of Teal Swan’s books before I understood that there was something to this pseudoscience. A deeper hidden truth, waiting to be uncovered.
From that point on, I decided to step into the dark unknown, to heal the deepest parts of my soul.
And that’s where the album’s story begins.
Art tries to express the inexpressible.
Yet it helps to have a little bit of an explanation.
At the top of the Artwork you can see our Solar System, the stars, and the Moon. That’s the physical reality, let’s not fool ourselves with superstition.
Out of the Sun, through the sphere of the Earth, a beam is being made and a Soul-like creature is projected between two pillars, and chained to them.
That’d be the venturing soul into the ‘inner layers of consciousness’, the underworld. The land of symbols, archetypes, and non-physical aspects of reality.
And what does he see?
The ravaged landscape of his subconscious mind.
Into The Rabbithole
Well then, shall we dive into the story?
Start by clicking “Prayer Cvll” below, which is the first track of the album.